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This 'Journal of mercedo' is totally dedicated to one woman whom I met with in Trecca, Kyoto, Japan on the 23rd of December, 1986 for the first time and probably the last time in our life. We will never see one another again, but my journal entry will continue till I receive a reply from her that'll never be likely to occur. She came into pieces and shining in the sky, and not in the least existing in my mind. I can see her smiling at me. Don't worry, she had just got married to another guy.
Born in Kokura, south-west Japan, 1961, I raised up as a most prosperous guy who'd always been located in second to none in all school I attended, now I started my trek to see her again till the end of time, waiting your reply.
I published my first novel 'The Eve' in 1978, now those who noticed who I am, please keep secret. For the moment I would like to enjoy being anonymous.
My trek continues...
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This 'Journal of mercedo' is totally dedicated to one woman whom I met with in Trecca, Kyoto, Japan on the 23rd of December, 1986 for the first time and probably the last time in our life. We will never see one another again, but my journal entry will continue till I receive a reply from her that'll never be likely to occur. She came into pieces and shining in the sky, and not in the least existing in my mind. I can see her smiling at me. Don't worry, she had just got married to another guy.
Born in Kokura, south-west Japan, 1961, I raised up as a most prosperous guy who'd always been located in second to none in all school I attended, now I started my trek to see her again till the end of time, waiting your reply.
I published my first novel 'The Eve' in 1978, now those who noticed who I am, please keep secret. For the moment I would like to enjoy being anonymous.
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Wednesday, October 19, 2005

 
Movement To Open Source Software
2005.10.13 1:27

Many people believe movement to open source software is good, why and in what point?
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open source is good...(Score:2)
by kesuki (321456) on 2005.10.13 3:17 (#13775143) (http://kesuki.deviantart.com/ Last Journal: 2005.10.19 0:27)
but what i see is more a co-existance with closed source programming.. rather than 'complete' replacement. open source is great for learning, back in the good old days of the Z80 computers came loaded with tons of information and tools to write your own programs. nowadays, unless you run/emulate those 'classic' PCs the only really readialy avialble 'learning' tools out there are open source. also, there is another thing, in a completely closed source world countless coumpanies spend countals thousands of hours trying to develop the same thing 'as the competetitor' or maybe something better, the point is they spend a lot of time and all those tens of thousnads of man hours of coding are producing nothing but 'legacy' code. once the company has made enough money off it, it becomes unused and unusable, especially to anyone out side the organization. open source can generate 'legacy' code too, but the difference is that other people can learn from the open source code, or find some bit of it they find useful when writing a new open source program.so there you go, sharing information is _always_ better than trying to make it into something so valueable it cannot be shared. america Used to get it, kinda, and western thinkers and society has 'gotten' it for a long time :) that's the primary reason why 'fan subbing' hasn't been 'compeletely' squashed, most groups are only trying to spread the artwork to an audience who may not have a chance to see it otherwise. and those groups will genenerally 'stop' subbing a title if the licenser requests it.. and most people who've been in fansubs a while rent or buy anime whenever they can afford to, although there are quite a few who have no means to afford anime but those people can still 'count as a demographic' and support 'fox kids' or 'cartoon network' by watching the engilsh 'americanized' version...
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Re:open source is good...(Score:1)
by mercedo (822671) * on 2005.10.14 9:52 (#13787111) (http://slashdot.org/~mercedo/journal/109855 Last Journal: 2005.10.19 4:34)
Thanks for teaching me a lot, part of it I couldn't understand though it takes time to see more, thanks.
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Now you've gone and done it.(Score:2)
by Allen Zadr (767458) * <Allen@Zadr.gmail@com> on 2005.10.13 3:28 (#13775230) (Last Journal: 2005.10.16 9:32)
Now I've got to write a book of a reply, just for you. I could probably more easily point you to a web site with better thought out answers, but I'm a cocky sumbits* and will do my best.
Cost of Entry
If you have a great idea for a new type of automobile, what would you do? Do you have the resources to shape the sheet medal, and weld a frame, and forge an engine block? Why is it, that only 60 years ago, someone with decent financial resources (but not necessarily someone who is "rich") could start a car company? Now, while you could build a car, you couldn't make it road-legal in any developed nation... there are so many regulations, from emission controls, to mandatory black-boxes, to crash-test standards that make the cost of entry enormous.
Micro-Computers, only 30 years ago, were the domain of hobbiests. Some BIG companies used computers, but mostly, it was people who thought they were neat, and would go and buy hobby boxes, and start writing programs (simple programs) that could run on these micro-computers.
Enter Software as a Consumer Business. Microsoft, Lotus, Apple, and many other companies were born during these early days, all by small groups of people with little means, a lot of determination, and decent ideas. Now these companies have grown huge, or been absorbed by larger companies, but even through the 90s someone with decent ideas and a lot of determination can make a big business using computers. Google, eBay, Amazon.
For computers, the cost of entry is still attainable by a 'regular person'. Again, a computer may be too expensive for someone of very low income, but right now... the cost of entry is low.
Except for Windows.
If Microsoft gets their way, there are no computers that don't run windows. If you want to develop software for Windows, you have to buy Microsoft Visual Studio, and Visual Studio costs $600 and up. That's a lot of money, yet still attainable. Good thing there are competitors that can also allow you to write software for Windows, like Borland (there used to be Watcom... what happened to them?). If it wasn't for competitors, Visual Studio would cost many thousands of dollars. This is already true with 'Game Consoles'. You can freely create software that CAN run on a game console, but to actually make it run on a game console, you have to buy a development package, for many tens of thousands of dollars - or beg a huge company to let you use their stuff. Higher cost of entry greatly benefits the HUGE companies. Look up "Trusted Computing Initiative" if you want to see something that will make the cost of entry unattainable.
So, that's cost of computer business entry. What about a Job? Have you looked for a Job lately? How many places ask you to supply your résumé in "Microsoft Word" format? These people expect that you have gone out and spent $300 or more on Microsoft Office? To get a Job I need to spend $300. To spend $300, I need a job. Thank goodness there's Open Office. I can download it, and create a "Word Format" résumé for free. What if OpenOffice didn't exist? Would Office still be so cheap? There isn't a quick-and-cheap replacement for M.S. Access yet. I note that the Office price doubles if you get the package that ALSO includes Access... Why? It would sure help me if poor kids with Student Loans would stop trying to take my job. Maybe if I require they submit their résumé in Gold leaf.
Hardware and Software
What if I buy an Apple Mac. It has an open PCI slot, and I have a PCI device that is "made for Windows". The PCI device is electrically compatible with the Mac. What if the company that sold me this PCI device doesn't "support" Mac hardware? Obviously, PCI is supported, the Mac can physically and electronically interface to the card... the company simply did not write the software to do it. Hey, if I could only get my hands on the Source Code for the Windows driver. I could then simply re-write it to work with the Mac. Why not? This is done with many devices already, because someone reverse-engineered the steps required to make the device work, and released their effort in Open Source.
The Biggest Reason of All.
I have this little program that allows me to manage users in my LDAP database without having to do a great deal of work. However, when I create a user in my LDAP database, I also need to create a user-permission entry that isn't already part of this other program. After a minor change, this program does both. Besides saving me time, it also saves me from the times I've FORGOTTEN to do this little task. Tell Microsoft that you want your version of Word to do something a little different, you'll get a blank stare. ... I don't have time, or the inclination to write a whole user-management platform for LDAP, but I can grab one off of OpenSource, and tweak it to my special needs without a huge deal of effort.
That's my reasons for respecting Open Source.
*sumbits - sounds a little like a disparaging word, which I've chosen not to use.
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I have only one complaint...(Score:1)
by DaedalusHKX (660194) on 2005.10.13 9:27 (#13778100) (http://slashdot.org/ Last Journal: 2005.08.21 11:42)
OpenOffice 2.0 beta (1.9?) has a database app to replace access, but it is not a dropin, I haven't messed with it enough yet, as I have little need for access as my personal databases are on my gentoo linux server :)Yes, its Postgres, its fully SQL 2000 compliant, and I have little trouble doing EVERYTHING with it that MS"Sequel" can do... and more... for example, I don't HAVE to add a gig of ram for every 10 users that connect to the stupid thing... most IT guys will sell you another gig of ram every time windows "server" 2003 complains about low ram... too bad nobody paid attention but once small business server hits the 3 or 4 gig limit, it cannot use anymore... its there, it detects it, and puts NOTHING in it... unless this has been patched recently...Also, windows pages EVERY DAMN THING... EVEN LARGE CHUNKS OF THE ACTIVE APP!! Linux, and BSD for example do things the other way around... instead of paging everything to the drive, they use the ram first, and start paging once the ram runs low.When I added another 512 megs to my Linux rig (a 1600 Athlon XP), I saw MASSIVE speed increases, because it paged the RAID 5 a lot less... the windows rig... hmmm... only change was that "sequel" was less slow... but not by much... Windows running its "ADS" and "SQL" and "Exchange" crippled a 2 ghz athlon XP rig with a gig and a half of ram... Linux, running Sendmail, LDAP, Postgres, PHP, Webmin, Apache, Netfilter (iptables to the gearheads) and a few other goodies to remain nameless (including Clam AV to keep the windows mail clients from being infected by shit that gets past the "fine" security in MS Office XP and 2003) and I have NO issues (since replacing them all with mozilla tbird and other OSS software on the linux clients I have NO issues at all even if clam misses an update)...LAST POINT... 40 holes patched for Mozilla Firefox, 10 for IE6... ARE PEOPLE REALLY THIS STUPID?!?! THE WHOLE POINT IN OSS IS THAT BUGS ARE EASIER TO FIND... FOR MICROSOFT IT IS UNFEASIBLE TO FIND BUGS AND FIX THEM... THIS MAKES THEM NO MONEY... THEIR USER BASE IS LARGELY IGNORANT OR STUPID AND ALWAYS LAZY... THIS MEANS THEY DONT NEED TO FIX WINDOWS, THEY JUST NEED TO SELL A NEW PRODUCT TO "patch" the old holes...!! Remember the embedded JPEG, GIF and PNG issues in Red Hat linux? THEY WERE PATCHED 2 ***YEARS*** before MS released to the press that IE6 and Windows in general was also vulnerable...!! SAME DAMN VULNERABILITY IN TWO DIFF OS's... WHY DID M$ with its "superior" methods not discover this?? With closed source, by the time someone patches the vulnerability, you're fucked... remember the CISCO IOS flaws recently found? Anyone use FREESCO for their router? You may find this amusing, but it is cheaper than a CISCO router... and ummm (besides being an ANCIENT linux based mini OS for a ghetto router at home)... heh... well... it fits on a floppy and runs on any box with 2 LAN cards :) (okay there's better alternatives and FreeSCO is old (stands for Free Cisco) but it was a damn great tool back in 1998 and 2002...)Windows, in my honest opinion is only good for ONE thing... and the only reason one of my old athlons still runs it.... "gaming". Some games will not run in Linux despite all the hard work I put myself through... so for those times, I have a Windows HDD I plug into the system and then reboot it :)... for everything else, I run only OSS.~D
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Re:Now you've gone and done it.(Score:1)
by mercedo (822671) * on 2005.10.14 2:56 (#13783199) (http://slashdot.org/~mercedo/journal/109855 Last Journal: 2005.10.19 4:34)
Thanks, I think I was able to understand the points. Especially these days the matter of open source software caught me a lot in relation to copyright law, patent law, the protection of intellectual property, private property, etc. Since the liberation of knowledge is deeply related to that of humanities, and more and more I've been noticing the use of open source software has been dominating in the world scene.
I would like to see the consequences, though, seems expansion of open source software will be the inevitable step toward the favourable future.
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Bullet point man to the rescue(Score:2)
by FidelCatsro (861135) <fidelcatsro@[ ]il.com ['gma' in gap]> on 2005.10.13 4:37 (#13775944) (Last Journal: 2005.10.19 20:35)
1:Cost2:Adaptation3: interoperability4: combined knowledge base5: Security through openness and a possible quantity of developers that no company could have checking for bugs and trying to speed it up and improve functionality6: Freedom to use the software as we wish (even including stinginess with the BSD license)7: Sharing is a great trait to teach our children
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Re:Bullet point man to the rescue(Score:1)
by mercedo (822671) * on 2005.10.14 2:40 (#13783020) (http://slashdot.org/~mercedo/journal/109855 Last Journal: 2005.10.19 4:34)
Well, nothing needs to add, I will learn by heart.
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Indian Summer
2005.10.12 11:26

I must say during the day time the temparature is still high enough -80 degrees.
It is too early to say it is indian summer though seems for we haven't had an autumn yet.
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as for me(Score:2)
by FidelCatsro (861135) <fidelcatsro@[ ]il.com ['gma' in gap]> on 2005.10.12 14:43 (#13771353) (Last Journal: 2005.10.19 20:35)
I know I like the cold .. but i wouldn't consider -80 C that warm
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Re:as for me(Score:1)
by mercedo (822671) * on 2005.10.13 0:01 (#13773457) (http://slashdot.org/~mercedo/journal/109855 Last Journal: 2005.10.19 4:34)
Reporting from Mars.
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Saturday, October 01, 2005

 
For what to be is, not to be is, soul, God....for what greens, flowers, rivers, forests are...... No water, my head is dried up. And again, not to be. Music, subsequently again, a woman. .........Sense! Thus my head thinks. And again I am. And again it's music. Subsequently again......One woman. And again I,
Never am dubious I am. I am never dubious I am. And again flowers. Once flowers are my foe......it's too small. And again my friend......it's too big. And again it's not to be, that's it. From next to not to be.
My mind is too big, because my capacity is too small. My mind is just a being. I respect to be existing. A woman is a child. Because a man is a dog. And again, my head thinks. I think senses. Nobody can write. Therefore I can't write.

Marriage in natural consequences. Meaningless discharge. Excess. Eyes listen to all the voices, a mouth sees some voices, and my head to eat. Because as if a horse sees fire, mist implies an atomosphere, there's no word. Substance that just exists, life derived from inconsistency, Sycamoreleaf tree born from the soul, then again a rotten head. A big pot, this dried up hair that brought me former victory. The acts of butchery is so sore in my eyes, once I loved the perfect darkness, and there's something, the epitaph on the grave that relish having them freezed the hands that's unable to grasp anything.

I had seen in sequence. I thought the fear and remained it in the brain. And again the thought of genius injured my brain, and had me drink fresh tomato juice. I had seen in sequence freely. My world has two, and was completely different. One is I had seen the fate in sequence, and the other is I had seen...... what I understand. Those are a man and God, a sphynx and a lion. Delirium is order, because I had seen it.

What I saw the next was just a vacant hole, glass and lenses, a carriage and light, a brain that thinks nothing, something without eyes, a woman who has got a clot blood from a nose to a head, it's the eve, everyday I stop thinking, everyday I am just the things, power and light, dream and substance, tepid crisis, and crisis, oh my head, I will follow my head!
Oh I see, and my head felt. My consciousness keeps on, a treason drowned, a freeman crossed the car, tomorrow night I will see a woman, talk to a guy who has got fish hands.
I am never aware of it. I came to be violent extremely.

It's night. A thought never exists. I am the only poet, and a bunch of flowers.
A man wearing suits stepped downstairs, heading for the car, as if a bull were slipping away from cliff.

What did I see? I saw everything, the whole things that exist now. Arthur Rimbaud signified me extremely. He is a big being, a human, a bull. That's not connected to Satan. Light is aware of him and being made him mad goes ahead from the deep mountains now. The eve is long.

If everything exists, there's no my nose. Because into my nose I had given a mad screw, a ballpoint pen like a watch, little by little for a long time. If I've got a thought, it's a sound. No news. A primitive figure changes since long ago, a deep light my head is aware of, and it's also a cool drop as if it were pouring. One big needle in the air of wrath as if it were boiling. They've got no chances to get out of it, rule over me, annihilate me, annoy me, oppress the feeling whether summer is better than winter, smashed the wild pig and put them into my eyes, decrease my sense extremely, killed my reason which ordered that I should hate a guy, am I serious that order I should know God, am I me?

I am exhausted. If I had things to see to seek for a console land, an upper arms of a woman, I feel comfort, the bosoms that are her figure are as natural as possible. That's also a life, and an integration. Therefore I feel tired and went to a distant desert, found three stars, admire Magi as Angels, breathed a sacred breath to the Tristar, hate the ones who want to be the art themselves.

I deny. I'm exhausted, totally exhausted. I saw an upgoing shooting star far away.

As if God wants to be God, men want to be men, I am to be me, passing through night and day, hens provide fresh blood at dawn, I will face 33 men with the help of women. When I found them just a breath I hugged women, went to the town of St Lous in the north, gripped the powdered milk, cried as a mad man, she went up to the heaven there, when I saw it she was contained by an angelic light, when my mouth swallowed everything passing through day, night and morning, and again I myself fell into being, day by day saw men, towns, a cross and saw music and I found human culture stands on the roof and the extraterrestrial's real image that has been making a great effort to establish the human symbol in it, and submit to the day to come, is that OK? What I saw at the same time becomes past, present and future over time, over lands, over the sea, over the green eyes, sink into the bottom of the sea, melt with modern science, over men, over women's body, I would rather feel hot than I perspire seeing the dream, melt with humans who live in the vessel of the hands than being harmed by animals that direct the cruel tanks. ______

Someone let him know where I'm heading for. I saw what I saw. I am insisting I saw what we are unable to see. I'm saying I see tanks in the violet, a big face near rthe horizon.

Blood is a piece of button
When I look into it, that draws the arch
When I look down it, that is above the head

Mountains respect the valley
Because the high is blood
The low is button

As such I came mad
As if I were eating
As if it were a mad tail
It sprung it dispersed as if eyes were hurt by it

There's no guaranty for Self to be the same as the self being concious at present. As well, time comes over the description and men eat quicksilver in the thermometre. What they eat is as good as decay or my gray matter is, prosecute the fruition in perseverances, and why not prepare for the day to come

Yet, yet it's eve. Tomorrow I will find myself to be sober, oh, witches. ____

Stop. It is necessary for me to take a rest for the day to come. I perspired. I saw the moon. At dawn over the mountains, over the valley, over the dream, pick out a piece of stone, throw it to the tristar far away on the top of the mountain, stars include the night, praise the 'world' we live___in order for us to need a finger to point, direct the clock.

To the bottom of the muddy pond
Tremendously big stone was thrown
Dispersed black dyed the stars in the night

Then
'Cat's Eyes'
Gave off the light suddenly from the utter black
Signified the universe all at once

After that
From the Alps Mountains
Tremendously small piano came out

Don't be afraid of
Now Mrs XX
Fell off and passed

-Jul/27, 1978


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